mischa is absolutely amazing. really. i got a letter from him yesterday at school containing his dog tag from the marines and a key to his house. and probably the sweetest letter i've ever received. the p.p.s. said "Here's also a key to my door. You're welcome to come in." sigh. i teared up in the hallway of school, outside the mail room. i'm such a sap. i know a lot of people who know my history with boys would say that i finally deserve an awesome boy who really, truly likes me and appreciates me. it's just hard to believe. i have this blissful feeling permeating my body and mind. contentness, satisfaction...mischa is a godsend. i like who i am when i talk to him. i can't wait for him to get here.

i'm so content. i want to curl up with a book and just...relax.

as always,